The Unexpected

How do you know when too much is too much? When it is considered to be too much information or even too much fun. How about too much love, or too much to ask of someone? When is it all just too much for us to bear? I wish I knew the answer to these questions. I am the king of not knowing when to do something at the right time. Well, at least when it comes to relationships and when to tell a person I like what is on my mind. In my everyday life I have every aspect planned out by day and it works for me, but when another guy is involved I lose total control.

Nobody likes to lose control, for me nothing is worse. It's a sign of weakness, of not being up to the task. Still there are times when it just gets away from you, when the world stops spinning, when you realize your shiny little mediocre life isn't going to save you. No matter how hard you fight it, you fall. It's scary as hell. Except there's an upside to the proverbial free fall. It's the chance you give your friends to catch you. At least we hope there are those select few that will catch us when we need them the most.

As Family, as friends, as human beings, we all try to do the best we can. But the world is full of unexpected twists and turns. Just when you've gotten the lay of the land, the ground underneath you shifts. It knocks you off your feet. If you're lucky, you end up with nothing more than a flesh wound, something a band-aid will cover, but some wounds are deeper than they first appear, and require more than just a quick fix. With some wounds, you have to rip of the band-aid, let them breathe and give them time to heal

Surprises are the worse, I think. I will be the first to admit it; I am a total control freak. Those of you that know me know this for a fact. Everything in my life has to be in my total control. Once that has been taken from me I completely turn off and freak out. So I think people can be categorized in one of two ways. Those who love surprises and those who don't; simple right? As I said, I don't. I like to be in the know. I have to be in the know, because when I'm not, crazy things happen. Okay, I had a point. What was it? I know I had one. Ok. My point, actually, and here it is, has nothing to do with surprises at all, well in a way it does. My point is that whoever said 'What you don't know can't hurt you,' was a complete and total moron. Because for most people I know, not knowing is the worst feeling in the world. From my experience at least, it ends up causing pain.

Pain, as much as you don't want to you just have to ride it out. You can only hope it goes away on its own, and hope that the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breathe deep and wait for it to subside. It totally sucks!!!